Are you willing?
On day 173
I'm a mere week away from 6 months and I am very irritable. Everything is annoying me and giving me anxiety. My dog is still struggling, I have a meeting with my cohort tomorrow on a Sunday and it’s just a lot.
It’s a lot of stuff on my mind. I know I do a lot, too much, but I also know that I love my writing and reading events. They bring me sustenance. The good news is that I am winding down on the podcast and trying to put better boundaries. It will never be a good time to take a year hiatus from the podcast. But I have to. For me. I’ve met my goal of over 80 episodes. I might start it up again but until then, I can share little short readings on MP3 that people can send me where I don't have to do the prep I do for every episode and the editing and recording. It’s a lot and I am over it for now.
So I am willing in sobriety, but annoyed today. Anxious. I am going to meditate later and just live in the moment. On day 173.
This too shall pass--that can be good news or bad news—