Housecleaning
On day 230
I am definitely not a neat freak. I like things picked up but definitely do not lean into an obsession on it.
The daily recovery for today talks about cleaning house in the sense of the steps. I get it. We need to clear away the dust and cobwebs to live a better life and let stuff go. Letting stuff go is hard for me.
Yesterday, I finished up my homework, worked on my beta read for my cohort pal’s manuscript, then I worked on my second AWP proposal (my first one is already in!) and next, I meditated.
I only meditated for 15 minutes, but I realized after that session of guided meditation that my mood was much better. I have some residual trauma that I needed to release, some work stuff that’s bothering me and just my anxiety about life. I pictured the issues as balloons, each with a specific color, and visualized releasing their strings from my hand. I watched them float away in my mind then popped them releasing everything into the air to disappear. Forever.
Even writing this is a second meditation for me. I’m starting to realize, truly, that sober I am powerful beyond measure. On day 230.
Meditation has been life changing. When I do not want to meditate is when I need to practice it in order to calm the sky of the mind.
Woot congrats ! And I love that visualization with the balloons . I’m going to try that. I love popping packing bubble so , who knows what that will release. :)