Sit
On day 276
I go fast at everything. It is my go to. My way. My habit. My propensity. My activity. My modality.
But it does not work anymore. Yesterday, anxiety filled me with dread. Then I let some things go, and it gradually fell away.
“Just breathe”, my husband says. “Take a breath and slow down.” But I don't know how.
I have three shih tzus and they are all very different. Merry is mischievous yet chill. He really is not a snuggler but he is mildly affectionate. He is a bit jealous. Yet pretty serene. Princess, on the other hand, is a snuggle bunny. She wants to be cuddled constantly. She will jump on your lap. But she’s pretty relaxed. And then there’s Pippin. He’s a lot. Always zooming, especially when he’s feeling well. Barking. Demanding. He rarely slows down. Go go go.
I’m a Pippin. And I want to be more of a Merry. I want to just be. I want to stop running. I want to let the anxiety go. I want to be in the minute and the moments. I want to appreciate life.
So here I am. I am just gonna sit. And be. Be me. With all my faults and peccadillos. I will try to quiet down a bit. Take it a down a notch. It might feel like slow mo for me and take some getting used to. But I can do this. Sit. Breathe. Sit. Breathe.
Just sit.
On day 276.
Sending light and gratitude for your authenticity.