The Darkness vs the Light
Day 229
Today’s daily reflection is about lighting the “dark past”. It feels prescient. As if this reading knew me intimately.
Yesterday, I published a story on a guest blog (Hannah Sward’s recovery substack, I adore her and her writing and she's an huge sobriety inspiration to me) about one of the darkest nights of my life. As a result, I didn't have a great day yesterday. I was anxious and off kilter. I couldn't sleep.
Writing about one’s most traumatic experiences is not a happy thing. Publishing it can be even worse. But I felt like I needed to bring it out into the light. For me.
I needed that memory to see the light of day.
You see, I am not ashamed of who I am. I am just me. But I thought I had resolved my “issues” and then I got sober and realized that I still have a lot to work on.
And my dog Pippin getting sick also made me see that life is precious. Money is irrelevant to happiness as long as you have enough. When I decided to get him his treatment for chemo, I was not sure about whether the cost would be worth it. But it was. To see him bounding & leading his pack. It’s everything.
I'm starting to see that when I go with my heart, when I lead with love, I win. And that’s all light. So let’s lead with light. Breathing in. Imagining a golden halo and breathing out,
On day 228.
Sending ❤️ 💕 love